What can I say about myself that doesn't sound self important or narcissistic. I could describe my life to you in some way that might explain all this, but I'm too close to the subject matter. What I tell you will only be skewed by the defense mechanism which only allows us to reveal what we would like the outside world to see. A projection of how I wish to be viewed. Not the actual moments of fun, frustration, laughter, anger, sadness, embarrassment, accomplishment and disappointment that I have experienced and shared so generously with an exclusive few. I'm sure they all felt very lucky, as they became ever more obsessively confused by my behavior and my actions. The things I said and the things I didn't say. So, to those who already know me. . . I apologize.
For the rest of you. . . how about a skewed defense mechanism? I was raised on a small upper-middle class island in the middle of the vast ocean of suburbia. A Close family unit with lots of vacations, lots of fun, lots of wasted time. I was isolated and protected. I highly recommend it. My mother was very loving, dominant and overprotective up until she passed away in 1996. I was never able to even remotely give back a tiny bit of what she gave me and I only began to realize what that was well into my adult life. I am nice, friendly, amiable, funny, awkward and reclusive and sometimes I'm ok with all that.
I have a cynical/realistic view of the world depending on who you ask and if they have a sense of humor. In a nutshell, I think people have just been spending time on this planet fucking around and becoming overly impressed with the goddamn mess they leave behind. I think that's where some of this (the website and the comic books) comes from, but in the end I do this because it's fun and I have trouble finding a whole hell of lot of other things that are even worth doing. If some of you think that my viewpoint is bleak and overly harsh, all I can say is that I believe in God. I believe he/she/it loves and ultimately has safety and protection for us all. . . not necessarily in this world. . . oh, and God also thinks I'm fucking hilarious.